It's been few months, 8-months to be exact
But it has been years,
...years of learning on how to trust or to be trusted
When you really engaged on a relationship that you have been
longed for,
asked for,
hoped for,
and prayed for the entire of your life,
you kind of hoped that the other person would give
as much as you are,
as much as you want,
as much as you always need.
I found one.
I think, I have.
That was the moment I saw everything click so perfectly. The person ticks off every list that I can made up as "My Perfect Match"
We started off with so much of chemistry, we learn a lot about each other in such a short period of time
I think it was miracle
To ever found someone with so much of similarities but at the same time so much of differences that really gels and blends with each other perfectly.
Like a magnet, yes indeed!
And then, we become magnet to each other.
Not so long ago, until things happened
I put so much of believe in me, that this person won't do something that can betrays and breaks my trust and heart. This person was the last person in this world that I thought could do so.
Since I opened up on how insecure I was, how weak I was when it comes to honesty and trustworthy in a relationship.
I hate been manipulated or cheated on.
It's something that can't easily reverse or turn back. Once broken, it's a lifetime damage. Nothing can be done.
Hold up one sec...
The past me probably would think so,
But this is me now whos talking...
I've come so far today, to just end thing that easily like in past
I have always driven on giving like 110% of my heart and soul to the person who I care most, in most of the situation.
Most of the time, I won't even get half of what I had offered as a return
But this person...
This person is beyond imagination.
This person gets the best out of me.
This person conveys and potrays what a knight in armor can do.
Yes, this person have all of my heart and my mind...
If I think that I gave 100% into this, well this person can do more.
The only problem that we're facing is, probably and maybe, we are too kind to people that sometimes, we couldn't even say no.
I get it.
Just because that one, ONE single stupid mistake, I have to leave this person?
The present me now is learning to give people who I care most, chance.
Which the past me, would never ever think of giving to anybody who is once a cheater.
Because this person deserved a chance, maybe two, maybe three.
Then, I would just pray, pray with all of my heart that this person sees,
how much I love and care about them,
how much I matter,
how much I sacrifice,
how much I fight,
and how much I learn.
Just to make this person happy.
