Day 8 of Adaptation

"What I've kept in my heart is only our good memories not anger"

Today I feel like crying. Whenever I'm in no mood situation, the number one person I'll run into was my girlfriend. But she's not here anymore. She has the effect of changing my mood instantly from worst to the better. I never need someone like I need her today. I really really need her. I was dump and sombre and no one can pick me up like she always did.

It was my postcall day. I had a really nice oncall, everything was chill no issues not until the next morning. I had this one patient admitted, and it seems my management was not up to this specialist in charge par, so she called me and we had a lengthy talk face to face, mostly me being degrading and demotivating. I felt demolished. Days like this, where I need to have her by my side while silently pouring out on her shoulder. Days like this, I realized how much an impact she had into my life. Days like this, I know, she's someone I need, who can easily protect my heart, only by her presence.

So I've cried, cried and cried until my eyes can't take it anymore. But still the pain never goes. I know eventually it'll disappear but if only she is here, the hurts will healed within seconds. The thought of her already comforting enough, what more her presence.

I know for sure, if she knows that I'm in troubles, she'll comes to me immediately. I know it for sure because that's how she's been taking care of me eversince.

And I'm missing her more until it hurts....